ALL THE SHIT THAT YOU DO .
please i jst made you wait for 15 short mins aite , not that long .
and what you get so fucking pissed off .
i dont see HOW AND WHY the fuck you are considering if you actually like me like you claim you do , and if you do 15 mins shouldnt be a problem for you should it .
im not saying that its okay for me to be late but its your patience im questioning .
and addiing on , i rly jst wish you treated me more like your girlfriend more srsly .
and plus the thought of us fading out rly kills me inside out , i want to be part of your life , past and present and not on your long list of history .
you`re my everything but i doubt i will be yours . ive never felt so bashed up inside out and thrown about emotionally like this and pushed to insanity .

BUAY TAHAN .
you`ll never read this , but i wish you would .

CRAP LAH HAHAHA OKAY IM GOING BACK TO TUMBLR NAOOOOO .
AND ONE MORE THING
IM SURROUNDED BY COUPLES (!!!!!!)

SUP PEOPLE .
LAST PAPER TML WOOOOOT .
jst realised how stupid my previous posts were HAHAHA !
whtvr , i love malteses they`re uber cute .
and i think ive got michael jackson disease , but its a veryVERY good disease ^^
wait , then it shldnt even be a disease .
ive got to scratch my itch for shopping , badly , right now .
but first im gna formspring random people who i dont even know , but its rly fun .

BAI BAI .

everytime i see both of you together , its like a stinging slap in the face .
liar .
you knew what you were doing from the very start , and i was stupid go along with it .

IM MOVING TO TUMBLR .
GOODBYE .

okay i know i shldnt be blogging right cos Os are like less than a week away now but AHHH who cares .
was jst doing papers and i found out i was unclear about so many things wtf physics included.
wish i took all the advice and started earlier .
I NEED TO SHOP LIKE NOW ITS BEEN EOOOONS SINCE I DID ):

never say goodbye , because goodbye means going away
and going away means forgetting .
- peter pan .

then i see you standing there ,
im all i`ll ever be but all i can do is try

HOWHOW I CANNOT RESIST SHOPPING ONLINE AT ZIPIA .
but i need to save $ for mjr shopping spree after Os .
HOW . BUT ZIPIA SO NICE .
):
k i shall go study and take my mind of zipia .
geeeeeeeeeeeee and there`s UO and asos , clothes there are so tempting to buyyyy ):

every smile you fake is so condescending ,
counted all the scars you make .

when you smiled and talk to me , it would make me so fucking delirious i cld spend the entire day laughing to myself .
all those little things you did , set me on high and made me feel like ive died and gone to heaven and id spend the entire day thinking of it .

but you killed the magic , now i cant feel a thing .

those days spent wit you i`ll keep in memory forever , and i mean forever .
bye .

you didnt give a damn thing honey but i cry , cry for you .
and you wouldnt have told nobody if i died for you .


i shall turn a blind eye to whtvr i see , and pretend not to hear whtvr ive heard .
and i shall drown myself in revision revision and nothing but revision .
fuck this shit .

sharp shooting at a break of a heart
baby gigolo , sex pistol .
hollering at anything that walks ,
no substance , just small talk


if i had the courage , i`d bitch slap you and kick your balls infront of everybody .
but i dont .
thanks for messing w my mind and my emotions .
i`ll never let it happen again .

k its 6.30 alr and i shld be going to sch but im not .
stuff in my head keeps rewinding and replaying so didnt sleep last night and felt fucking irritated .
still feeling irritated .
srsly WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM , if you wna break it off cos you still like her JST SAY LA WILL IT KILL YOU !
WHERE`S YOUR BALLS MANZ .
oh right , you probably dont have them .

You let go, so now it’s my turn. I’m willing to accept that. But when I find happiness, don’t decide you love me .



somebody jst shoot me `cause i dont think my heart is able to take this anymore .

HI TDAY WAS A GREAT DAY :D
i swallowed a fishbone wtf and got sunburnt .
sch tml , sucks .
getting back results , suck .
IM FALLING SICK ):
okay bye .

All I want is here and now,
but its already been and gone


if it isnt there it isnt there .
im not her , will never be .
i want to hear the intentions of the real you .
dont go covering it up w your empty kisses .


okay i should be studying now , but im going to sleep cos i feel like such an emotional wreck .
& hiatus till Os are pretty much over which is the 11th of nov , got to start studying alr if not i can throw my future down the toliet bowl and flushhhhh .
BYE :D

OHMYGOD.
PHYSICAL GEOG IS TML , NOT HUMANNNNN .
and i bloody freaking studied for human thinking YAY I GOT SO MUCH TIME LEFT FOR PHYSICAL GEOG !
GAHHHH .
pluz , i lost most of my notes on phy geog .
txtbk better be informative .

say hello to goodbye
baby i love you and you make me want you so bad it hurts .
but if you dont give a fuck , i wont either and why should i .
i love you doesnt mean i`ll do anything in the world for you (:
& i have no idea who reads all this crap every now and then .
i`ll stop tweeting . twitter make me feel like an idiot , who needs to know how you are feeling every ten minutes .
GAH .
BYEBYEBYE .


it`ll only hurt if you let it .

LIAR LIAR ,

im sick of having to hold on to the little things you have done ,
truth is you dont rly care , do you .
i wait like shit for your smses and wait for you to go online and spend hours thinking of you when i should be doing more impt things .
never ever play wit a girl`s heart and let her to love you to make you feel better .
substitutes substitutes , im so fucking sick of being one .

somebody shoot me .

:D

if only i could ans qns tml like WHEEEEEEEEEEE .
like dream .
okay i know super broken english but whtvr i shldnt have slept for 3 hrs jst now and studied instead and i shldnt be on computer right now .
sadly , i still have the ' i dont rly give a shit its jst prelims not Os ' thinking .
somebody kick me .

cause you`re hot then your`re cold ,

you`re yes then you`re no .

eng paper was terrible .

screwed up the letter writing format i feel like such a dumbass and i keep killing ppl in my essays .

didnt know what the compo was talking about and summary was crap

bahhhh ):

SS kills .

i wish i had these , it wld give me SO much motivation to study .

dance dance ,

we`re falling apart to half time

Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires.

-Francois de La Rochefoucauld


been doing nothing but study sleep watch teevee use computer lately .
hate it hate it hate it .
but if i fail prelims = DIE .
as in DIE DIE .
geeeeeeeeez rly wna go out and just go WHOOOOO .
& jst saw rly nice stuff on F21 and asos . and im broke ):
IM SO SAD SOMEBODY CHEER ME UPPPPPP .

pissed at phy cos i just found out i dont know a heck lot of things .
pissed at SS cos i do not know how to ans so damn many friggin qns on SBQ or whtvr or how to structure .
pissed cos i spent almost half a day on it and it wasnt v productive .
pissed cos im letting you way into my heart while you`re walking away .
& i dont know if you`ll ever turn back .
pissed cos im thinking wayyyy too much right now .
im going back to study ):

oh sweetheart put the bottle down,
cause you dont wanna miss out


everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay
everything will be okay

so much for getting up my hopes and see them crashing down again .

secrets stolen from deep inside ,
the drum beats out of time .


i just found out my mum`s playing matchmake for her colleague tnight and she`s hoping they`ll get married hahaha !
anw thankyou so much for the get well soon wishes guys luv you lotsz :D :D
did injections while i was in the hospital , i am going to eat 3 full meals per day nevernevernevernever going to skip cos fainting rly sucks and staying in hospital sucks even more .

doctor : this injection is going to be just like an big ant bite so dont worry okay .
C : k , *bites tongue*
doctor : okay one two .. three
C : OOWWW !
doctor : injection hurt that bad ?
C : no , i bit my tongue ..

[edit]

i cant go for MJ flash mob , sad ):

but on the bright side i`ll have more time to study for prelims .

alexandra mcqueen leather shoes sooo gorgeous , but they cost a daaamn lot .

prelims next weeeek ,

stress stress stress stress , but nevermind it`ll be over soon ! (:

hi love , missed me ?

im praying what we have aint a lie .

when did we fall apart ,
or did you lie from the start .

when you do things w/o your real feelings attatched ,
it hurts less .
when you lie to yourself , it may just seem real enough to believe .

k random

rly rly have to start studying nowwww ,
bye .

first i need your hand ,
then forever can begin


asos asos asos asos asos asos asos asos ,
should order asos ?
:S
MJ flash mob on 29th aug I HOPE PPL STOP AND WATCH AND NOT BE SO BO CHUP .
wish cld do the same as the tribute in stockholm which had 300 ppl but we`ll prbly get arrested .
& i feel like doing volunteerism work :D .
stupid O monsters .
k gna study now bye .

you said move on , where do i go .


OMGGG I GOT A2 FOR CHINESE HAHAHA !
from C6 all the way till there , its pretty awesome :D .
im pratically dying w/o a phone .

i want to love you ,
pretty young thang :D



some bloody asshole stole my phone tday .
fuck you -'-
but whtvr you can have it im getting a new phone soon anw .
forget the memory card :/
neh , went to report and the office lady had to rub it in and scolded me and said :

its your fault what , you tempt ppl to steal so of cos they steal lah .

i swear i could have slapped her face and said :

so next time i walk into a shop and steal something i like its okay cos its their fault for tempting me to steal .

say till the person who stole stuff is right and those people whose stuff gets stolen is wrong .
illogical shit .
i hope whichever bitch who stole my phone dieeees suffers .

But they told me
A man should be faithful
And walk when not able
And fight till the end
But I'm only human


O LEVELS SUCK .
but whtvr there`s only 2 wks left to prelim and 4 mths left till Os so yea .
oral on monday :/
i have this sudden urge to do charity work , go figure .

this aint a fairytale ,
im not the one you sweep off your feet .


weather and climate has to be the most boringgg thing ever .
& i shld be studying it now instead of playing pet society :/
29 days down to prelim and 10 weeks more to Os .
I OUGHT TO PANIC .
PANIC PANIC PANIC .
im going for stem tml and make it productive :D
on another hand i miss G and Yan and the drama club .
and life`s pretty boring .
and ive no idea who still does read all the crap posts that i put up .
yeap .
bye .

baby dont talk to me ,
cause im trying to let go




me : im sixteen , honest , really , can watch NC16 la .
guy : nope i need your IC .
me : huh no i left it at home .
guy : then sorry i cant let you in .
me : huh.......
guy : srry lei , cos you rly look young .
guy : rly sorry ):
me : nevermind ):



FAIL MAN I TELL YOU HAHAHA .
plusz anyway being young is great :D

maybe miracles stopped happening ,
because ive been expecting too much of them .



hihihihi , i just opened my wardrobe .
& it exploded in my face .
& ive got to stop buying black clothes .
sheeesh ):

look who took you under ,
seven inches in


hihihihi , life`s rly boring .
study play study play , you get the drift ?
k i prbly be on hiatus , yes i know ive said tht a million times before hahaha !

oh watch this its damn super cool :D

hey pretty baby with the high heels on ,


obvious i cnt go to LA staples center for the memorial so , stayed up to watch MJ`s memorial last night from 12am-4am and wanted to fake fever this morning to skip school . but i didnt and K.O ed at 12+ while they were showing the casket thing .
woke up at ard 2+ am later to catch the rest of the memorial . and i cried at the part where paris said her tribute for her father MJ and at the part where usher sang gone too soon .
and then fell back to sleep after they moved his casket out .
ahhhh why cldnt God give him 2more years to live or just enough time to finish his this is it concert ):
RIP MJ WE`LL MISS YOU LOTS ):

KYM HYOONG JYOOOOONG ! :D
teehee .
screwed up chinese oral tday , said THEN once and let the teachers fill in the blanks for me .
other than tht i was smiling throughout the oral like some idiot .
anw

i think this is damn HOTTT .
no wait i dont think , IT IS .
HAHAHA !
okay bye :D

you know what
twitter is damn addictive hahaha !
on another hand i miss michael jackson .
like hello i started liking him only this year then havent even one year and he`s dead alr ):
ppl say " you dont know what you got till its gone "
so true ):
then i forgot i told who this in class
me : eh , i love michael jackson lei .
the person : HE DIE ALR !
then got another one , evelyn .
me : i like michael jackson !
evelyn : huh that white guy ?!
walao -.-
faster faster go listen to michael jackson , his songs are rly nice :D
heehee , k bye .

ANG CHANG HUI IS AN EVIL PERSON .
teehee .
must be nice like me :D
okay byebye .
will update stuff tht makes more sense soon .
luvyou .

dreaming about the day when you'll wake up and find ,
that what you're lookin for has been here the whole time



maybe fairytales arent meant for everyone .
fuck it .


you`ll never see how much i still love you .

HIATUS .
meanwhile i`ll be using shopping as a distraction .

bye .

i need some cheering up .


bye world .

bright cold silver moon ,
tonight alone in my room


TWINNIE IM UPDATING :D
OH YES I LUV YOU ! HAHAHA !
k drama chalet from fri 5-7th june , fun .
school , chalet , mrt , pasir ris , downtown east , small room , games , girls talk , movie , sleep , next morning , wild wild wet , bathe , sleep , bbq , double dare , yangzhouchaofan , double dare ,
bathe , eat , kicked out of chalet , went back at 6am , slept for 30mins , woke up , talked , packed , homed .
whoa sunburn is making my skin peel .
the chalet floor was so cold i practically froze to death sleeping on it .
watched drag me to hell wit peeps it was scary okay , rly scary and we spent half the time looking at everywhere except the screen and screaming like some little kid .
got kicked out of the chalet room on the last night and ton-ed at E-HUB . best :D
pictures next time bye :D



crash and burn , everytime i think the feeling for you has faded , it comes back .
i still love you , silly .
but i know you dont and never will .

k you know what im taking amaths . but the thing is my parents plus ms J wont know about it they`ll complain like hell :S
but i cnt drop amaths either cos my combined humans is CMI .
not rly excited about drama chalet either .
got so irritated 50 seconds ago i bought another juicy couture bag .
bye /.

NO MORE CHINESE !
I DONT HAVE TO TOUCH IT EVER AGAIINNNNN YAYYYY .
although its good to know there`s one more chance to take it again .
wasted time wit angeline walking ard clarke quay , but it was fun :D
anwww , i`ll be dropping amaths after much debate .
so insted of 7A1s its 6A1s O:
i`ll be the first girl in the level to take 6 subjects but , whtvr .
im buying my nikes tml , happy (:
my juicy couture bag is here , double happy heehee .
k bye .

i feel like crapppp :/
maybe its time to figure out who i am .

dont believe everything happiness says ,
nothing`s as real as our own reckless ways ,

geog paper tday , pretty okay i guess .
didnt study much but still could write i call that a miracle :D
spent a bomb on www.asos.com
shitzxz , retail therapy my ass i think it adds on to my lack of $$$ woes .
i shall stop posting shallow stuff ):
i . must . love . chinese .
okay bye .

http://www.fashiontoast.com/
http://karlascloset.blogspot.com
http://cinnamon-and-coffee.blogspot.com

♥ these :D
gorgeous , no ?

cause everytime i get stuck the words wont fit ,

and everytime i try i get tongue tied .

i dont even know who reads my blog now . dont rly care anyway .

screwed up MYEs pretty badly .

dont even talk about amaths .

i hate last min studying but i do it everytime and the stuff just doenst get in

. gah , ive learnt my lesson .

ohmyGOD i want her jacket and leggings !

k back to studying .

no wait i shall sleep first :D

without me , his world will keep on turning .
a world that`s full of happiness ive never known .
i love him .
i love him .
but only on my own .

- eponine , les miserables .


spent 3 hours on amaths , another 3 more hours to go .
and then there`s lit , oh well :D
i think studying is fun hahaha ! .
btw tim is LAME okay LAME .


me : psssst , i tell you something k , but dont tell anyone . HI ! :D
tim : okay . shhhhh i shall not tell you my hello too , secret .
me : wth ! lamer than me .
tim : ya , havent been able to walk since sec one .

bye fellow hot peoples .
:D

hugh jackman is the hottest man alive , on earth .
i wont mind watching wolverine a thousand times over heehee .
i rest my case :D
other than tht , bet nobody can escape studying . exams suck .
i shld be studying SS now .
bye .

awww boy ,
WHERE ARE YOUR BALLS ?
dropped them somewhere didnt you .

hello ,
ive found someone who loves rum tum tugger and mistoffelees as much as i do :D
other than tht , drama recieved a bronze , screw the judging .
written up list of what i wnted to get . total was a hugggge 3 digit no. .
k im gna go study .
bye .

like a hard candy with a surprise center

HELLO :D
okay i know i shld be doing my work now but hecccckkkkk .
SYF was the bomb manxzxz . G and Yan rly rocked and they helped us out so much during the trainings and they were there to watch us perform (:
it was rly great to see the entire club as one before we went on stage , reminded me so much of when i was sec 2 and watching the seniors peform .
lastly the best person behind the entire club would be ms khoo who worried for us so much and even dreamt of the play and ended up having nightmares .
i went ya during the last scene , oh God PLEASE , hope tht the judges did not hear it .
hugged G and yan after the entire show , dunno why but it felt good :D
kayyyy RLY HOPE THT DRAMA WLD GET A SILVER , BUT I DONT CARE EITHER IF WE GET A BRONZE COS ITS THE EFFORT WHICH COUNTS :D
im so :D
and if we do get a gold , i`ll literally die of happiness .

HI :D
watched CATS ytd , it was GOOD .

i love rum tum tugger , i think he`s sexy for a cat , no ?
if i had a cat , i`d name it mr mistoffelees .
:D

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer ,

d you know you`re unlike any other

overdue ,

HELLO (breathes life into here )
i think i better post to save my dying blog .
SUPI I UPDATED SO ITS NOT DEAD OKAY , ITS ALIVE , hear the heart beating ?
boomboombooom .
-.-
superteens for the past few days & ive got my motivation to study now :D
i (L) superteens .
basically Dr ernest was rly sick , as in in the mind and a little harsh on people who lost their parents , but he rly motivated us and i nearly cried towards the end .
IM STRONG :D
SYF on april 14 .
SILVER please please please please .
although i play a tiny role as a crazy woman on stage wit few lines , SILVER/GOLD FOR DRAMA ALL THE WAYYYYYY :D
SILVER , I BELIEVE I BELIEVE I BELIEVE
7A1s I BELIEVE I BELIEVE I BELIEVE
speaking of which i shld be doing work now
okay love you darl bye
:D
i`ll lose this feeling for you , eventually

that`s what you get
when you let your heart win

mood killer =/


"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "
"you got no life is it "

fuck you a trillion times im trying to hold a damn conversation .
whtvr i dont know why i care so much either .
on the brighter side , had a looong talk wit sweets :D love her to the maxx hahaha .

all this while , ive been giving in so much effort for nothing ,
nothing but heartache .


HAHAHA GET OVER IT :D

GAH .
):

AHHHHHHHH CHICKEN NUGGET (!!!!!!!!)
):
):
sports heats sucked to a certain extent full stop .
k (L) you ppl im gna study for geog :D

i must confess
im in love with my own sins


i have no idea why but im feeling dead freaking nervous about sports heats on wed .
DONT ASK WHY .
im jumpy about almost everything and i have no idea why .
no idea , give me idea la .
put lightbulb above my head :D
ADRENALINE BABYYYYY ,
i guess thts what sports heats gives me .
i just spent a bomb on shopping
now i know how becky bloomwood feels when she`s up to her eyeballs in debt and needs $$$$

why do I keep running from the truth
all I ever think about is you

okay hello this was meant to be posted last night but my cookies got burnt in the oven as i was typing cos i totally forgot about them after i went to do up vday cards and fell asleep on the sofa and to prevent whoever who reads this from throwing up at their computer i shall not post the pic cos its rly yuck ):
BUT THEY LOOKED OKAY WHEN I PUT THEM IN .
ahh , im gna have to scrape the tray clean later the cookies literally stuck to the tray even if i tried to shake them off they wldnt drop off . wth , next time i`ll follow a proper recipie .
scraping the cookies off the tray suck .
evelyn and chu`s vday cards were v sweet (:
oh and thankyou to everyyyyyonee who gave me chocs/cards i love you all v v much .
oh and guess what i found ex-bestf`s card under my foolscap just now given on vday last year .
manzzzzz what happened =/

happy valentines day , ♥

WTFC I HAVE FUGLY HAIR OKAY ):
GROW HAIR GROW ):

built a wall around my heart
i`ll never let it fall apart

okay yay im posting normally for the first time in 231235421 years *claps hands*
i wish i had photos to post , but i dont . boooooooo ):
no wait actually i do , but i cnt upload . booooooooo .
skipped hse practice and went to develop photos for sweets :D
life`s been monotonous .
just school , study , play , study , home , study , play , study , sleep .
SUCK RIGHT (!!)
frazzled frazzled frazzled .
i need $$$$$ too ):
IM GOING ANTI FOOD YES NO FOOD .
oooohhh im hungry .
DIET LA CAN .
im in no mood for school/lessons tml ):
oh yes TRINITY COLLEGE HERE I COMEEEE OH YES IM SO GNA GO THERE I DONT CARE WHAT WHOEVER THINKS HAHAHA .
hahaha okay bye .

bitch ,
you`re rly pissing me off .
cb .

I`d do anything
for you mean everything , to me


OKAY THIS WAS MEANT TO BE A LONG LONG LONG POST BUT IM TIRED SO TOO BAD HEHEHE .

suddenly , the silence seems so loud its , driving me crazy .
drama = sian
sian = ):
duhhhhh i dont like the script and i dont even like my character i hate it i cant be a 70 year old paranoid crazy over the top old woman its ... retarded .
hahaha .
the script itself is dumb and boring ):

i like you , so much
(:
time to get up and move on and bury those feelings deep deep and far away .

i think i just lost... lets say someone i loved v much . i think i lost it quite sometime ago but didnt realise it till now .
no bodoh its not abt r/s
lets just say , i just lost my bestfriend/sister .
its upsetting , but i`ll never forget what we had (:
hahaha , i create my own worst problems .


move on

hahaha im back here blogging .
still have to give monkey my xanga pswrd :D
apologise by timbaland & you`re beautiful by christina aguilera brings back alot of memories .
i miss ):
kao , got so much stuff to do ):
& we dont even talk no more ):
i dont like syf script .
but heck la .
k back to studying (:

(*#($*#q($%#*%^_@#@!*#%(*%Q@#)(@#%*#)%$)*@#)$*@)#$*
fucking pissed off can .


WHATS YOUR PROBLEM LA CCB .
DONT BLOODY TELL ME WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO SAY .
IM TRYING TO HELP HERE FUCKER .
OH WAIT , YOU DONT DESERVE IT .
WTV MAN
I. D.O.N.T . C.A.R.E
.
why shld i be so worked up on you anw .
pcb .
huan lo , waste my time only .

shit im so screwed for amaths .
blahblahblah .

HIATUS for now .

and i mean it .
dont know wtv boy girl guy gay woman reads my blog but ya hahaha .
but i know monkey does and i know she`s reading it right now HAHAHA :D
you dont even know how much it hurts .
what can i do when im all choked up and you`re okay .
boooooooo ):

the one that lies to close to me
whispers hello i miss you quite terribly

im effing annoyed at somebody now sheesh .
first day of sch was so so . felt weird infact .
oh yes bloody hell i was almost late cause i couldnt wake up and when i got to school i nearly headed for the sec 3 classes -.-

to sum up the first day of sch : pretty okay :D

im still annoyed .
k gna play pet society now , so cute hahaha .
bye :D